Long time no type.

I hardly contribute to the DeviantArt community so I guess I don't feel I should contribute in other ways, such as keeping the journal updated. However I decided to add an entry.

Been drowning in work recently and haven't had time to write anything of value. The one or two good pieces (even by my standards and I seem to despise all that I write) have led nowhere. One was a major part of a book I am writing based on a character I created. It was meant to be a large chunk of the book and I lost it. Was in Greece at the time, writing it in the 6 hour break from work. (I was working on an Archaeological project there). Anyway, my laptop died on me and when I took the hard disk out to get the contents copied, the people at the computer store said it was dead or unreadable. Brilliant, no?

The other decent piece has been drawn to a halt. I'm too busy with university to spend more time on it, and its supposed to be part of another novel I'm working on. An existentialist novel. I had been reading Milan Kundera's The Unbearable Lightness of Being when I saw a pair of panties on the sidewalk. This was close to where I live (a dodgy neighbourhood to begin with) at midnight. I rarely get a character that reveals itself in its entirety to me when I first imagine it, so you can imagine my glee when I found this gentlemen in my mind.

But now I am busy writing essays that don't count to my final mark on things that don't particularly interest me and preparing to give three seminars in three consecutive weeks. I would complain more about the rest of my work but there's no point, really.

Usually all of that wouldn't bother me, but add to that my constant fluctuation in emotions (being bipolar is like being on a rollercoaster for your emotions; its cliché but then you have long moments between rides of extreme apathy bordering neglect of self), insomnia and discomfort in public places but seem to have to rely on them to work ("home" isn't as comfortable as it should be).

Too much confusion, really. Lithium by Evanescence; hate to say it, but the lyrics describe certain things a little too well. Must stop complaining now; I'm sure there are people whose misfortune outweighs mine, but I guess its still "healthy" to vent. My apologies to anyone who reads this.

Tchuss

Mixed feelings about a lot of things right now. I set my playlist of music on the computer to shuffle and out of the thousand or so I can't seem to find anything I want to listen to. So much time left in this day and I'm wasting it. I could be writing about the effect the war in Iraq has on the Archaeology of the region (for a journal), or I could write down the scene I've been playing in my head which would work as an excellent introduction to a book or short story. I could also work on my book that I've been putting off for a while or read some books I've been meaning to read.

This all because the website I frequent so I can write closed down and I've been home all day...*bangs head into wall*

Why is it that now I can't seem to write anything when its needed? Maybe I have too many things to write. I have an open exam tomorrow, a journal article to write on Mesopotamia, yet I still don't know what I can write about it. Maybe I'll write about the Epic of Gilgamesh. I also have to write something for a friend for her magazine. A 1000 word limit is a bad thing. I can spew 1000 words in my sleep.

A picture is definately not worth a thousand words. Ten thousand words is better.

Mood: Peaceful
Listening to: Juno Reactor - Conga Fury (Animatrix Edit)
Reading: Nothing
Watching: Nothing

Greetings all,

I'm not much of a fan of this type of music anymore, but Juno Reactor is the exception in my opinion. The song I'm listening to is from "The Animatrix." Its the song played in "The Final Flight of the Osiris," the song at the very beginning. Its quite good. It has a fast beat, but its not as apparent due to the bongos and so on.

I personal suggestion to you all, start listening to Juno Reactor. Not just the songs from The Matrix Trilogy, although they are quite good. The Conquistador is a good song.

Now on to my rant. MTV...you were good. Now, in my opinion, you only play two or three styles of music, all of which are popular with the perplexed, confused, perturbed (and other such synonyms) youth of America. For this, MTV, I loathe you. Music used to be good, now its nigh on impossible to find good music. If you do, and it becomes too popular, something I see happening to My Chemical Romance, the band is discredited by the underground "scene," and their once famous music is shunned by the underground "scene." In short, music lovers are, in general, hypocrits.

I completely agree that music should be made for the sheer enjoyment of it. It is also something that makes money. Should a band make money, then congratulations to them. If not, who cares. As long as they still make music for liking it and not stop because they couldn't get rich. Several artist, whose names I will not mention, merely cheapen music by their very presence in a recording studio and their audacity to call themselves artists.

I, personally, enjoy listening to nearly all types of music. Some I do not listen to because of what they represent. That being the decadence of their genre of music. Music is a good thing. What makes it ugly and horrible are the people that exploit it, take advantage of it just so they can get richer than they already are.

I could easily continue from here and comment on Capitalism, and how the rich keep getting richer, while the poor keep getting poorer. And from there to other political beliefs. But I believe I have ranted long enough and incoherently. Also, so people don't complain, these are my opinions. You have an opinion about what I said, good. If you wish to inform me of it, even better. I can't promise I will respond. That depends on the coherence and rationality of the opinion.

Regards,
Solivagus

Mood: Empty
Listening to: A Perfect Circle - The Noose
Reading: Nothing
Watching: Nothing

Ever felt like there was no meaning left? Ever looked at your life and wondered what you're doing?

I should probably sleep more...